We are always wishing things could be different than they are. I wish this also. The reality is things are what they are. People are where they are.
In the past, I haven't done a good job of setting boundaries with those close to me. Mostly. There are always qualifiers. Maybe this is a time of life kind of thing. I haven't been a Medicare recipient until last fall. So please bear with me. I am getting the picture.
Walking the path is important. A friend mentioned that she thinks I 'walk the walk.' Well, mostly. The learning curve is getting shorter. I don't want to carry baggage. Yours or mine. Sometimes it is important to move beyond yourself when relationships get too heavy.
I am lucky, grateful to have such dear friends. Friends with whom I can tell, cry...my story. I want to let go of the storylines. If I don't, I will miss the present. My friends are wonderful. They share their experiences from which I continually learn. Our pain has no boundary.
One of my friends today said I looked sad. I am sad. Sad about a couple of things. Things that are not the way I wished them to be.
The other side of that is most of my experience on planet earth is a happy one. There is a fair amount of joy.I try not to analyze any of this but to sit with it, meditate and let it go. Regrets, anger, frustration only hold us back.
There is also a piece of land that needs attention, which, I have neglected too long.
The land has missed me and I it. It is good to be home. I am where I am supposed to be. As are you, my dear friends. Home is always in your heart.
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