Bye

This is my last entry.  Maybe forever. I don't know.  It doesn't matter.

How do I show my authentic self?  My fears.  My worries. Courage.

I am having an emergency ultrasound tomorrow.  It is timely.  For the past few week, mostly, since I hired Allied Van Lines to move my things back from NH that they have repeatedly, incompetently messed things up.  They even charged me more than they said.

I hate these corporations.  I hate that people do not stand up for what is right. That this government cares more about itself than the people who fund it.

For 50 years, yes 50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have lived with abandonment.  It is true.  Rarely is anyone there for me.  I learned to live with that reality many years ago.  Yes, I am strong.  I am human.  I have my own set of fears. Now I said it.  Now I am done.

Tomorow at 12:30 p.m. EST I have an emergency procedure.  I am glad to be having it.  It made me comes to terms with all I shoulder.  My body is falling apart.  I can't do it any more. Now shall I.

Wish me luck.  Wish yourself luck, too!

Bye.