Just now

Where do you begin when everything you know is BS?  Pure. Simple.

Nothing is as you thought.  As you were told.  Socialized.  You were the pawn in this experiment, this game gone out of control.  You.

In a way few will understand, you have been provided access to another world. Instantly, your old way of looking at things becomes more negative than you ever imagined.  People seem spiny, small, insignificant.  This is because you see things in a totally different light. You see what you 'had.'  You become acutely aware of all thee assumptions you made how about people think, what they think.  Suddenly the thoughts that once filled your mind disappear.  There is no longer room for that.  Too much is at stake.  Now. You know you must remove all assumption because they do not fit the awareness you have now.  It is a confusing time.  An exciting time.  It requires lots of quiet to allow things to settle in.

In a way, it feels chaotic because you have a foot in two ways of being.  You can't leave the old way completely until you fully assimilate the new frequency, the new vibrations.  It feels like PTSD and few understand what you are experiencing.

You think about the media, Fb posts, obvious stuff that you got years ago.  You know you must allow others an opportunity for their own processs.  More and more people are leaving Fb because of the confusion.

You observe how the populace fights and frets over replacing Columbus Day with Indigenous People's Day.  One crisis after another appears on the headline.  The masses are glued to the television, continually interrupted by commercials.  The commercials are designed to make people feel awful about themselves.  Especially women.  There is just no way you can matter.  Until.

Until you get out of the mainstream.  Why would you want to be where the average peeps are?  Because that is where you will stay.  It is well nigh hard to escape. It has been designed to play on your subconscious.

It has been more than delightful on the mountain today and yesterday.  The energy company came to do what was supposed to be a two hour energy audit.  The fellow stayed over three hours.  The summary of escaping energy will surely minimize my purse.  Am I suppose to worry?  Hardly.

The fog rolls in.  Earth cleanses itself with rain and more rain.  The sound of ATVs going up and down the road fill my quiet space last night.  They are not allowed in this community.  Nothing is ever done about it. It mirrors what has been allowed on the earth plane by the unevolved.

I like my inner sanctum and I spend a lot of time there.  It is easier here.  No expectations, no disappointments.  Just now.